Searching- A saga ✔

96- The Beginning

Giddiness golden envelopes my mind,
Spinning a typhoon that tears down sanity,
Glassy, I glance, my eyes with tears lined,
Words emerge bordering the edge of profanity.

This journey I have for long walked,
My heart in my eyes, and mind in my tongue,
Those tears drop and slip unlocked,
As an enrapturing tune pours out unsung,

For long, I searched for You, Milord,
And now at the tipping of time,
I see a beautiful gate unlatched without a cord,
That bound me within the jail of Maya, sublime.

This final battle with Maya, I must fight.
And then I can open those double doors,
To let love flood out in all its might,
'Ah! Maya, my honey, stop being so coarse,'

'Oh, Maya my sugar, stop being this sweet.'
She smiles sardonically and appeals,
To the threads of my heart's backstreet,
My lips wobble as my mind she stealthily steals,

Tears slowly flow down my creamy cheeks,
Hands shaking and a sob building,
My knees buckle and my heart leaks,
Lost and stranded in the web of Maya wilting,

She tsks, her tongue clicking disapproval,
My breathing turns ragged, unable to comprehend,
This new battle with Vishnumaya, reproval,
Etched in my heart, myself I condescend,

But tears, warm and soft, ground me,
In a way, they are a cruel anchor,
All this way to drown in Insanity Sea?
For something I'll forever hanker?

Suddenly the walls turn grey,
The world shrinks and love leaves,
In my mouth, tongue turns to hay,
Outside all trees have wilted leaves.

My brain tries to make sense,
My heart tries to understand why,
My eyes see the world through a new broken lens,
My lips curl downward, cracked and wry.

All thought of Maya forgotten,
Yet struggling within her claiming waters,
Somewhere inside, a clock ticks to ten,
And a lock turns open revealing quarters,

That I've never before entered,
All within a world encased in my heart,
And then I see You, my thought centred,
On you like a cursive intricate art

A sad smile lingers fleetingly on Your lips,
I reach out as if to brush that curly hair,
"You'll find the key in your heart", an eclipse
Of Your smile haunts my lair,

I take a step forward, yearning,
You shake Your head, "This battle is yours"
"Win and show me, darling"
And You disappear taking with You all cures.

I sob. For that's all I can do at this point.
The ground slips from beneath my consistence,
It's a feeling of utter bereaved joint,
When a soul wants to erase its existence

But then I remember Your words,
And cling desperately to my last belief,
That key within my heart like lost birds,
While Maya pitifully gazes at my grief.

I rally my strength one last time,
And smile, my lips quivering, I taste,
Your name. As lovely as morning lime,
Mixed with honey and vanilla paste.

And then it happens: everything,
Just as Maya looks up, a little confused
Suddenly more than a mirage, she is nothing,
And within my brain, my mind gets fused.

And then realisation hits deep,
The key is love, Love is He, He is heart.
Into my pores, I find eternal love seep,
And forms an alloy to become my principal part,

And then the jail crumbles,
Vishnumaya smiles, her eyes, glowing with cheer
Filling with awe as the sky beyond rumbles,
And every answer became crystal clear,

All the questions that remained unanswered,
All the letters that remained unreplied,
Everything about me.
Everything about this life.

I smile, still reeling though.
And embrace the world. And embrace the knowledge.

I look at Maya,'I understand', she says,
'But what about the end?', I ask.
'For that, you need to read the book', she says.
'You know the plot, now you need to live the tale.'
I nod, unbelievingly.
She raises a hand in farewell.
And disappears in a blast of gold,
That rains over me like stars.

I sigh.
And from somewhere just beyond,
I hear the sound of Panchajanya.
Now begins the real tale.
I smile and follow the sound.
The sound, that has forever been a beacon.
For me.